A REFLECTION ON KHANTĪ

While fetching my Dhamma mentor, Sis Paru back to her home, she shared with me about "khantī", a quality that's essential in developing virtues and mind training. 

Back during my undergraduate days, I was taught about the six pāramitā qualities essential to tho who're practicing the Bodhisattva-way, and one of qualities is non other than "kṣānti" or "忍辱". My understanding about is just merely patience. Breaking up the Chinese term "忍" which mean patience and "辱" which means insult, putting together the whole meaning would become "patience from insult". Well, that's really hard for me, especially when dealing with unreasonable people in the communities that I'm living in.

My gratitude to Sis Paru, the short sharing by her that night had enlightened me a bit about this. It's not just patience alone, but it's also forbearance with understanding. Each person comes from different background, hence its normal for people having different perspective and way of doing things, and that's the nature of life. I'm still human, and it's natural to have emotions.

Engage more with positivity and wholesomeness, Have hope, but expect less. Focus internally and externally on the process and learning, be aware of feelings, but not attached to them. Develop understanding and treat ourselves with compassion. And not to forget to train the mind through undertaking the five fundamental precepts to abstain from killing living beings, taking things not given, sexual misconduct, false speech and consuming anything that causes intoxication or heedlessness. In this way, "khantī" could be cultivated properly. 

As the saying goes, "khantī paramam tapo titikkhā", forbearance is paramount in virtue cultivation. 

P/S: "Khantī" has the same meaning with "kṣānti", with the former in Pāli and the latter in Sanskrit

PREPARING AN UMBRELLA BEFORE A DOWNPOUR

Today commenced the 2^nd phase of the MCO, with a stricter compliance to further mitigate the spreading of COVID-19. Last week, the PM unveils the economic stimulus package worth RM250bil to cushion the nationwide economic impact due to the restriction order as well as to stimulate economic growth during the post-MCO. For many, especially the needy ones, would see this as a caring effort by the government to help those in need to sustain their lives as well as their financial situation. Well, that’s a good move by the government.

Despite that, what lies beyond is uncertain as this situation is unprecedented. The COVID-19 outbreak did not only affect our country, but the entire globe as well. And do expect that global recession would occur. If the worst comes to the worst, mass entrenchments might take place. Yup, government did take measures through their stimulus package to prevent the employers from firing their workers. But who knows what would really happen? If the company couldn’t sustain any further and they can only choose between entrenchment or filing a bankruptcy, what do you think they would opt for? Think about it. Next, the amount fork out for this stimulus package is about 83.4% of the amount planned to this year's budget. What do you think? I believe there will be give and take in this matter. Furthermore, things might turn even worst if the citizens continue to take things for granted, being expectant of the government, and are poor in their personal financial management.

“Selalu sedia”, or always prepared, this is the slogan that we need to remember as a young scout. “Sediakan payung sebelum hujan”, or to prepare an umbrella before a downpour, a Malay proverb that reminds us to be prepared in any situation. That’s why, regardless of what sorts of planning we are doing, we have to come out with the plan B, or also known as the contingency plan. So, are you prepared? Or you need some kickstart for the preparation?

Here, I would like to share with everyone how you could be prepared financially for the worst. I’ve come out with the formula of MAPES in dealing with the personal financial crisis:

Be Mentally Prepared

Before you could go any further, the first thing you need to deal with is your own emotion.

1. Be aware and recognize that negative emotion within. Its normal to experience emotional turmoil as you might have been putting a lot of expectations in your current financial situations.  
2. Learn to accept the current financial situations. You couldn’t change what has happen in the past, but you have the ability to decide what will happen to us in the future. Cultivating acceptance would empower you in facing adversities and challenges to come.
3. Be open about your situation. Communicate your situation with your related individuals, especially your family members or best friends. Who knows, they might be your great source of your support.
4. Be committed to positivity, provided that you are emotionally stable and understands the situation that you would be facing now.

Analyze Your Financial Situation

Next, you need to understand your current financial situation before making any necessary plans.

1. Calculate your net worth through properly investigating into your assets and liabilities. Assets can be valuables, saving accounts, investments or anything that’s valuable. While liabilities are your debt which you owe such as credit card debt, mortgages, loans and unpaid bills. Your net worth will be the outcome after you have minus your total assets with your total liabilities.
2. Determine your net income through analyzing your income and expenses. Your income is the source of your revenue, such as salary or rental revenues. While your expenses can be your expenditure on utilities, food, transport, entertainment and etc. The net income is the outcome of your total revenue deducted with your total expenditure.
3. Upon making clear about your net worth and net income, make an effort to assess the consequences of your current financial situation. Think and brainstorm how you would improve your current financial situation better.

Planning & Recovery

After making clear of your financial situation, you can now start brainstorming and planning on your financial improvement.

1. Determine your financial priorities. The priorities may be getting new job or getting another job, cutting expenses and debt forgiveness. Your financial priorities depend on what you need the most now to improve your financial situation.
2. Make monthly budgets based on the priorities. Many find this troublesome, but yet this is one of the most effective way to control your spending. Next, track your spending. Discipline yourself by making records on your daily spending. There are budgeting and spending tracker apps available for your convenience, so no worries.
3. Explore opportunities for additional incomes. You may opt for part-time e-hailing driver, delivery boy or even part-time online retailer, or whatever that suits you the most. However, whatever part-time jobs that you’re opting for, please make sure that it complies with your main job’s company policy.
4. Keep yourself updated on the government assistance, such as this Bantuan Prihatin by the government. However, do not rely too much on the government or taking their assistance for granted. You need to make clear that they just assist, not give.

Execution & Management

1. After having all those plans ready, execute it. It’s normal to feel uncomfortable to stay disciplined in keep tracking on your expenditure in the beginning as this is not part of your habit. So, for the sake of your future, please bear with this.  Be determined and zealous. You can make the difference.
2. If you found out that your current debt is over burdensome, consider consulting related personnel for debt restructuring to smoothen out your financial burden. I believe they would understand you and find a way to make things work for you. Unless, you owed loan sharks.

Stabilizing & Maintenance

Execution doesn't stop here, even if your goal is achieved. It's a continuous process to begin with to prevent you from financially prone.

1. As I mentioned earlier, discipline yourself in executing the plan. Stay consistent and make it habitual. It will help you to stabilize your financial situation. Who knows, your children will learn from you as well.
2. What is in the past, let it be the past. Learn from the past experience and refrain from repeating it. The whole process of financial recovery and stabilizing might be challenging, but in the long run it’s worth it.
3. As you’ve successfully back on track, don’t just stop there. Plan in advance and be prepared for any potential rainy days to come. Set up an emergency funds based on your needs. Whatever happens will happen eventually, and we wouldn’t know when it will happen. So, just be prepared.

These are merely my own sharing of thoughts about dealing with personal financial crisis. You may check out on the suggested links below for more tips about the topic. Last but not least, be grateful with what you have and don’t take things for granted. You wouldn’t want to spend most of your time complaining or placing a grudge for your own unpreparedness. No one will forever be held responsible to you but yourself. Stay smart, stay safe, stay at home.

Some informative links:

https://www.investopedia.com/articles/pf/11/prepare-for-a-financial-crisis.asp

https://wikihow.com/Survive-a-Personal-Financial-Crisis

May all of you be well, be healthy and be peaceful.

#MCOday15

#sediakanpayungsebelumhujan

14-DAYS STAYING AT HOME ACTION PLAN

With the COVID-19 pandemic becoming worryingly serious, the government had no choice but to announce the national movement restriction order effective from 18^th for 14 days in order to curb and stop the coronavirus from rapidly spreading. Besides the essential sector workers, all have to stay at home or stay put wherever they are and are advised to refrain from travelling elsewhere, including returning to hometown. For those healthcare personnel who have to risk their lives to battle with the ongoing pandemic and to those who are risking to make sure our safety and welfare is taken care of, I would like to thank you for the great effort and please stay safe and healthy wherever you are.

While to those who are forced to stay home for two weeks, please abide to the instructions and bear with the order. There might be some of you who are still required to work from home. Well, at least you’ve something to do. For those who’re not required to work from home like me, I believe you might feel a bit boring and there’s nothing much you can do besides lying on your comfortable couch while scrolling your android and consuming your newsfeed unnecessarily . Actually, there are plenty of other things that you can consider doing at home. Here, I shall share with you what you can do while staying at home for 14 days in six aspects of well-being.

1.     PHYSICAL

I believe many of those workaholics would not have much time to exercise due to their routine hectic schedules. Well, this two-weeks duration is your time to really consider how you can do something for your physical health. You may consider managing your weight through indoor exercising such as tabata, and healthy dietary planning. You may also consider daily yoga or planning for a 7 to 10 days detox program if you think that your body needs detoxification. There are plenty of guidance video found in Youtube, so I believe that there's no excuse for not knowing where to start.

2.     MENTAL

Mental health is very important in keeping us going and living up to our fullest potential. You may consider some self-enrichment or learning books or videos to develop and enhance your soft skills, knowledge or even life values. If you’re not fond of books, you may adopt a healthy hobby like blogging, vlogging from home, gardening, cooking and etc. However, if you’re having mental uneasiness, feeling anxious, fearful and need somebody to talk to, please, please, please do not hesitate to call up to whom that may help you such as BeFrienders (603-79568145), YBAM Online Psychological Guidance Service (http://bit.ly/3b5xGp0) or other consultation platforms which might be familiar to you.

3.     FAMILY

For those who stays with their family, it’s high time to have more quality time with them. You may organise indoor activities that involves you together with your family members. Those activities can be boardgames, cooking together, doing house chores together, movies together, heart-to-heart chatting and etc. While for those who are not staying with their family, you may make a phone call to them and have some quality, long conversations with them. There are internet video calls nowadays. If not applicable, then I believe that there are many service providers providing unlimited call plans that you may subscribe to.

4.     ECONOMY

Since you can’t go to work for the time-being. So, I think it’s a good idea to start planning for your near future. You may do so through learning up financial management and planning skills, or you may consider exploring opportunities or possibilities for extra income such as investments or side careers. I guess its high time to re-evaluate for ourselves how we spend our money and to prospect how will our financial condition be in the coming five to ten years. If there’s anyone who’re considering for extra income opportunities, you may find me, but provided that you’re open and serious about it, and are willing to learn and take up challenges.

5.     INTERPERSONAL

You may consider catching up with your friends, ex-classmates or ex-coursemates and strengthen your network which you could hardly do due to your hectic schedule. However, please don’t get me wrong. I don’t mean that there’s no need for social distancing. With the emergence of convenient networking platform such as Facebook Messenger, WhatsApp, WeChat or even Zoom, there’s no excuse for us to not engage with our friends, especially those who’re categorized under lost-in-connection individuals. You may use this platform to express your care for them and even to have some quality conversations with them. Furthermore, you may utilize the convenience of the group-chat feature to start a discussion on a topic in the group. It doesn’t have to be something that’s debatable, it can be a sharing among the group members, for example how they are planning to go through in this 14-days of restriction period.

6.     SPIRITUAL

Depends on people, each and everyone of us have different religions and have different perspectives on spirituality. For me as a Buddhist, I can utilize my time with daily paritta chanting, reading Dhamma books, studying some Buddhist scriptures, listening to Dhamma talk recordings and spend some time for peaceful meditations. For others, you may consider doing your daily prayers, listening to sermons and even do some studies on your religious books or scriptures to enhance your spirituality.

Yes, there’s indeed many things that we can do to utilize this 14-day restriction period. Instead of excessive scrolling on Facebook without any objectives or indulging ourselves with all those negatives sentimental posts and comments, why not considering utilizing this period more purposefully? I’m sure after 14-days, besides seeing the outbreak subsiding nationwide, hopefully, we might be seeing ourselves much happier. Who knows, after this 14-days period, you might discover what matters to you the most or you might have a clarity on the purpose of your life. For everyone’s information, I adapted these six aspects in reference to the Nalanda Buddhist Society’s six well-beings, and it's applicable to everyone regardless of your races and religions. This is merely just my sharing, and also a part of my time-utilizing activity. Well, think about it, my dear readers.

May everyone be well, be healthy and be peaceful.

#perintahkawalanpergerakantidakmembosankan

#pelantindakan14haridudukdirumah

#keepcalmandstayathomepurposefully

#nalandasixwellbeings

WASTED TIME

Please reflect.

Are you aware of that? The moment when you’re giving in to greediness, cheap skating and bribery, you’re actually letting your time slip off wastefully.

Are you aware of that? The moment when you’re succumbing to anger, prejudice and dissatisfaction, you’re actually wasting your time miserably.

Are you aware of that? The moment when you’re finding excuses to deny what is realistic and true, you’re actually throwing your time away delusively.

Are you aware that you’re taking your time for granted? If yes is the answer, then you are definitely taking your life for granted as well!

Time doesn’t stop for you! In fact, time has to be spent fruitfully and wisely. You need to make use of the time wholesomely.

Instead of giving in to greediness, why not just be contented and generous, acknowledge their hard work and, in the meantime, help to boost up the nation’s economy?

Instead of succumbing to anger, why not cultivate yourselves with kindness and empathy so that everyone would live in peace and harmony without fear?

Instead of creating so much delusive excuses, why not just tune yourself into the learning mode, acknowledge of being praised, appreciate of being criticized, learn from mistakes, change for the better, and consistently improve to achieve the highest potential?

Time is not on your side, remember that. The clock is ticking. Your time is running out. Please, do not waste your time, or else, be prepare to regret!

NIHON NO BUKKYŌ: A SECOND LOOK

Credits to Club25Japan

Sensōji of Asakusa

Four years ago, I was in Tokyo for a student exchange program in Waseda University. I stayed for three weeks there. During the stay, I spent one of the weekends exploring Buddhist temples around Tokyo, including Sensōji of Asakusa, Kannonji of Ōfuna, Hasedera and Kōtokuin of Kamakura. To my surprise, the Buddhism culture in Japan was different from those in Malaysia. To go into a temple, one has to pay an entrance fee between ¥300 to ¥500. Not only that, instead of Buddhist monks, the abbot here are addressed as Buddhist priest. My curiosity intensified when I get to know that the Buddhist priests here are allowed to get married. It was unacceptable for me back then. As my time there was insufficient and with limitations in my Japanese proficiency, I did not get to know more about their culture background and details.

Kannonji of Ōfuna

Hasedera of Kamakura

Kōtokuin of Kamakura

Zōjōji of Tokyo

Four years later, thanks to the opportunity given by YBAM, I got the chance to develop more understanding towards Buddhism practices and cultures in Japan. This time, I revisited Tokyo as a participant of the Malaysia-Japan Buddhist Youth Exchange Program. Our first stop was the Zōjōji of Tokyo. Zōjōji is a Japanese Buddhist temple under the Jōdoshū sect. There, we met the committees of Japanese Youth Buddhist Association (JYBA), the president of World Fellowship of Buddhist Youth (WFBY), Rev. Hakuga Murayama and other participants of the program residing in Japan. During the briefing by Rev. Yoshiharu Tomatsu, I finally clear of my doubts about the eligibility of Buddhist priests to get married back then. It all started during the Kamakura period (1192 – 1333 A.D.) when Shinran of the Jōdo Shinshū, where he totally abandoned the monks precepts and get himself married, calling himself the most wicked man in the world, with the intention to make himself identified as no difference with ordinary people in order to save his wretched self and pave way to relieve other peoples’ suffering (Matsunami, 2008). We were given an informative booklet of “A Guide to Japanese Buddhism” that explores in-depth the cultures of Japanese Buddhism. Beside Zōjōji, we also visited Tsukiji Honganji in Tsukiji, Kuhonji Kodomoen, Sensyōji and Iōhji in Iwaki, Fukushima. Despite their significant difference in culture compared to Buddhism in Malaysia, there are some values and practices there which I really admired and appreciated.

Tsukiji Honganji

Group photo at Iōhji in Iwaki

Meticulous

Many find that being meticulous is troublesome and inconvenient. To them, being meticulous is something habitual and has been embedded in them since childhood. In fact, being meticulous in doing things trains them to be much more patient, attentive and mindful, hence minimizing unnecessary flaws and mistakes which might be more troublesome, time-wasting and painstaking if done. It would be good if such attitude were implied while organising Buddhist activities.

Respect

During our trip in Japan, we were being treated as guests more than as exchange program participants. Fortunately, we did not take things granted. At many times, we tried our best to minimize their troubles in treating us. We also noticed that how they respect their elders through speech and actions. This had made me recall on how some Buddhist youths nowadays are being so ignorant and disrespectful while speaking to the elders and even unappreciative while inviting speakers to give Dhamma sharing in their respective premises. I felt that more education needs to be done to instil the attitude of respect in them.

Responsible

There was one accident where the van that carried us slipped due to the slippery slanting road and the tyre’s bad thread condition. Our luggage was inside the van. Instead of delaying our program schedule, they made quick response by assigning us to other cars and proceed with the next program, guaranteeing that our luggage will be delivered to us or else they will compensate for the loss. Fortunately, the van was saved and resume its operation. Another occasion that touches me is during our bus trip from Iwaki back to Tokyo. One of the program committee, Honda-san, tirelessly go through and review his script and translations repeatedly to ensure that the messages are conveyed effectively. I even personally praised him for his hard work and thank him for his tireless effort.

Rev. Murakami patiently preparing for kōdō

Besides just visiting, we also have the opportunity to experience the Jōdo Shinshū’s morning chanting in Tsukiji Honganji; oryōki (mindful eating), ancestor service, lantern service, zazen (seating meditation), shodō (Japanese calligraphy), chadō (tea ceremony) and kōdō (art of appreciating incense) in Iōhji. It was indeed an extraordinary experience, especially kōdō, where the abbot of Iōhji, Rev. Tokue Murakami conduct it as a game.

Here, I would like to express my gratitude to YBAM, WFBY and JYBA for making this exchange program possible, especially Kikuchi-san and Honda-san who had constantly took care of us. Not to mentioned, our Japanese counterparts: Masashi-san, Shinjo-san, Moeka-san, Yusei-san, Fumiya-san, Ryushin-san and Mei Mei for making this experience a memorable one. If there’s chance, we shall welcome you to Malaysia.

WHOLESOME ECONOMICS

Economics, as defined in the Oxford Dictionary, is a study of how a society or a community organizes its money, trade and industry. In fact, economics has become one of the important fields in a nation’s development. As a Buddhist, we might be thinking that economics has little to do with us and we should not be concerning about this. This was what I’m thinking about in the past. Well, if we’re monks, then it’s okay not to have any concern about this. However, we’re still laypeople, and our daily needs and consumptions revolve around economics. While reading a chapter of “Maximum Benefits” in the “Dharma Moments” book by Danai Chanchaochai, I rather agreed that how Bro. Danai interpreted economics as one of the interdependent disciplines working towards the common goal of social, individual and environmental well-being. Even during the Buddha’s time, Lord Buddha had given economical advice to his devotees.

In the Dīghajāṇu Sutta (AN 8.54), the Blessed One addressed to Dīghajāṇu Byagghapajja, a wealthy clansman at that time, about the four accomplishments that lead us to economic well-being.

1.      Accomplishment in initiatives (uṭṭhānasampadā)

While earning to acquire wealth, we should do it virtuously and not taking advantage of others or engaging in an unwholesome trading not complying the Right Livelihood such as trading in weaponry, trading in people, trading in live animals, trading in intoxicants and trading in poisons (AN 5.177).

2.      Accomplishment in protection (ārakkhasampadā)

Upon earning our rightful wealth, we should consider how our wealth can be carefully conserved from being stolen or consumed by disasters. Despite having convenient banking system today, precautions are still needed. There are still robbers and deceivers (scammers) out there working for illegal incomes.

3.      Accomplishment in good friendship (kalyāṇamittatā)

Sometimes, we’re ignorant in managing our wealth. That’s when our good friends come in. Do not mistaken the “good” friend here with the friend that always treat us well or always make us feel happy. The “good” friend I mean here is the wholesome friend who’s virtuous and accomplished with faith, ethics, generosity and wisdom. A good friend possesses the quality of a helper, a companion, an admonisher and a compassionate one (DN 31).

4.      Accomplishment in balanced finances (samajīvitā)

Having acquire our rightful wealth, we also need to manage and spend it wisely, not being too extravagant or too frugal, or not spent on womanizing, drinking, gambling and benefiting bad companions. The Blessed One mentioned in Adiya Sutta (AN 5.41) that our wealth can be managed into five portions: first portion for family and household; second portion for generosity to our good friends; third portion for future emergency uses; fourth portion for taxes and charities; and the fifth portion for supporting the Sangha community. However, as era changes, more areas we need to spend on with the wealth we have such as loans, transportation and etc. It shouldn't be a problem as long as we know how to manage our finance wisely and not being too extravagant or too frugal in spending or spending on womanizing, drinking, gambling and benefiting bad friends.

Besides that, Lord Buddha also mentioned another four accomplishments that lead to spiritual well-being: accomplishment in conviction (saddhāsampadā), accomplishment in virtues (sīlasampadā), accomplishment in generosity (cāgasampadā) and accomplishment in wisdom (paññāsampadā).

These are the advice given to lay devotees by Lord Buddha. It’s up to us whether or not to act according to his advice as each of us has different financial backgrounds. There are even people out there working just to make ends meet, while there are also some subject to criminal activities for the wealth gain. Well, if we’re wise enough, we shall be able to work rightfully and manage our wealth diligently without having subject to any criminal activities that will definitely be ruining our future lives if it is done.

This, I believe, is the economics from the Buddhist perspective. Instead of putting so much blames to the authorities and government on the poor national economy, why not we start pondering and reflecting ourselves whether are we being economical or do we even know what economics is before putting judgments?

By the way, this is just my own opinions and reflections. I’m still a learner and there are many that’s yet for me to explore. With a fresh start in 2019, let us begin by being mindful in managing our economics like a deer being mindful day and night. Happy New Year everyone!

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NO TIME

To many, death is a taboo. It's something dirty and unfortunate if it happens. Many would have pessimistic view when a topic about death is discussed. There's even possibilities of being scolded for just talking about death. In fact, death is just a part of an inevitable process in our lives. We're bound to face death the moment we're born to this world. Death is a condition for suffering, especially when we're not prepared for it. There's no way we can escape death and gain immortality, until the deathlessness is achieved. So, what for getting so indulge with something that would subject to decay? What for wasting time being angry with others, having resentment towards others and yet poisoning our minds? What for regretting the past and worrying the future when we still have the now-moments to take care of?

True indeed! There's no time for us to get so indulge with something that one day would bring us dissatisfaction. Sabbe sankhara anicca! All things are subjected to impermanence and changes. Instead of being so indulged and attached, learn to see them as how the things really are. If its not affordable, then find another one which is affordable and yet serve the same purpose. If its spoiled or broken, then just get it repaired. If its no longer repairable, the get a new one if necessary. There's no use crying over a spilled milk. Be contented on what we have and refrain from being jealous of what others have but we don't have.

True indeed! There's no time for us to store grudges and implant ill-will on others. While we're cursing others for being bad, we're actually drinking the poison of misery, we're eliminating happiness which we always wish for. "He abused me, he beat me, he defeated me, he robbed me," in those who harbour such thoughts, hatred is not appeased (Dhp 3). If fact, we should be forgiving, we should harbour the thought of loving-kindness and compassion. In this world full of unsatisfactoriness, it's normal that we're subjected to conflicts, arguments and wrongdoings of others. Don't harm ourselves, but instead love ourselves more by being a forgiving person. Hatred never cease through hatred, but through love alone they cease. This is an eternal law (Dhp 5). Instead of leaving traces of resentment, why not we leave behind a culture of wholesomeness for others to appreciate and emulate? Wouldn't that help to induce a harmonious community?

True indeed! There's no time for us to regret on our wrongdoings in the past. We're still putujhanas, we're still worldly beings. We still have ignorance and flaws that make us subject to errors and mistakes unknowingly. It's okay for others to critic, admonish and judge us, as that's how the society works in reality. But most importantly, we need to look after ourselves. Admit it if we've done mistakes, then learn from there and carry on. Let us not seek others' faults, things left done or undone by them, but consider our own deeds, those done and left undone (Dhp 50). There's also no time for us to worry what's going to happen in the future. At many times, we're too used to putting expectations, ending up with disappointments. Why not we just put our expectations aside and enjoy the process? In this way, we wouldn't be so stressed up, anxiously demanding for the expected results.

Many are too indulge with their own virtual realities up to a stage where the true reality is being ignored. Many are habitual in judging books by their cover despite being advised and reminded. Instead taking the effort to clarify and understand, many chose not to know, but instead to remain ignorant and blindfolded. Its time for us to stop and ponder whether we're thinking, talking or acting heedlessly. Are we mindful of what's happening around us? Are we aware who had appeared around us?

Vayadhammā sankhārā, appamādena sampādethā! "All conditions are subject to change, strive with diligence!" That was the last reminder by the Blessed One to His disciples upon passing into Mahaparinibbāna. I've made it into my life motto. Up until my very last breath, I aspire to live a life with all the good values and wholesomeness. I believe, by living in such manner, I could just smile and go when my time comes.